The 2019 New Year

The New Year is approaching which means it's time to create or expand our resolutions. I sat today to jot down a few ideas and it made me feel good about the upcoming year. I reflected on the work I've done and the work I plan to continue and develop. Now I'm starting to refine my ideas and welcome the New Year with excitement for what is to come and gratitude for what has been.

Suzie Sateri

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It's just me typing as fast as I can while trying to not overthink what I wanted to write.
About the way we talk to ourselves.
I'm hearing the way you're talking to yourself, the way I'm talking to myself.
Let's just continue with the illusion of happiness until we experience moments of it.
And until then, make the voices we are speaking to ourselves with into doves.

Suzie Sateri

Dear Mom and Dad

I remember a conversation we had a long time ago. You were talking to me about how disappointed you were with me and you asked what you did to deserve that.
I was just thinking, visualizing a moment in the future where you are being treated better than the most loved baby thinking, what did I do to deserve this.

Rainy Days

I remember a few days from when I was a kid when I just didn't want to go to school. Because I lived one street over from my elementary school I actually walked home during school one of those days and I climbed in the kitchen window to have some peace and solitude. I'm pretty sure I returned to school without anyone knowing I was even gone.
On those types of days I'd go to my teachers and talk to them about what I was going through. Whether they agreed it was my fault or not, talking to them seemed to help. I could be honest about what I was going through and receive a safe response. The strength and honesty in their feedback gave me the courage I needed to either apologize or make amends.
Many times we've seen accounts close, people saying bye and cutting off communication with others. I remember those types of emotions like I climbed in the kitchen window yesterday. I guess some days are going to be like that for the rest of our existence.
What I do know and recognize still, are the people who help us along the way. The teachers we learned from and those we follow, looking forward to a hug from mom or dad, going to soccer practice or playing with the neighbors... the reasons we have to think we can endure the days that are hard for us to get through.

Suzie Sateri

Rest In Peace George H. W. Bush

That Girl Sally

They started as skeletons in, to them, what seemed like a haunted house. They danced through their past like Jack and Sally. With the sounds of nothing but old memories, they began their life together. Like a beautiful house transforming into a home, this story started with "good bones".
May the memories you cherish give you wings to fly. 

Suzie Sateri

Bubbles

I want to look inside of your beautiful mind to see what you're thinking when you refer to me as a perfectly transparent rainbow colored circle that can fly like a genie in the sky.

Floating With Wings

I once worked in silence.
The outside was noisy and chaotic.
I'd close myself in my room and write.

Then, so noisy inside that I couldn't write until the storm settled.
I had to wait until there were words.
Like an unborn baby I tumbled back into my existence with a blank canvas.

And now, floating with wings awaiting flight but again.
This life we share can be so beautiful.

In my bickering back and forth with you I realized.
I put you in the center of the rest of my life.
I'm sorry for the moments when you feel too overwhelmed to take on responsibility from me.

It's just the way I believe in you with all of my heart and soul.
It'll be worth every second, worth every risk.

Yes, you believe in me in many multifaceted ways.
I've been recognizing you more often and I believe in you too.

Suzie Sateri

The Path Less Traveled

A Pathologist is a Dr. for people with cancer. Cancer is an abnormal growth of cells. Our bodies are filled with cells so when there is an abnormal growth of cells our bodies would naturally feel exhausted trying to keep up with the growth that is happening. A pathologist is someone who can identify these paths our life has traveled and possibly discover what can be causing us pain. Our duty is to nurture and grow the healthy cells while finding forgiveness, wisdom and understanding for the paths in which we wish to depart.

We depart from "Small World", we depart from "Pirates of the Caribbean", we depart from "Peter Pan", we depart from "Little Mermaid", we depart from "Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs" we will depart from "Beauty and the Beast"...

Steadily Breathe

Is that what happens to people deep in the waters of cancer?
People saying "F*&k cancer".

"Steadily breathe with your underwater breathing gear."
"Wear headphones and go to Disneyland."
"Explore outer space with the astronauts and dance with the aliens."

This human experience of ours.

I saw a girl who reminded me of the character from the Disney movie, Brave.
I haven't even seen that movie yet but she was beautiful.
And she was probably brave too.
As you are both brave and beautiful to the core.

"Blackbird" - Eddie Vedder

Broken Blackbird Wings

When I get you, maybe it's you.
My eyes feel like they've drowned in tears.
From a squint too tired for bitterness I look with light.
Throat soar like a baby crying through the night.

When I get you, maybe it's you.
My wings spread like an eagle soaring.

Suzie Sateri

Top 10 Traditional Dances In The World

Stretch Marks

Like wrinkles turned inside out the skin actually makes space for new skin. Light and soft, vulnerable and imperfect. The marks made from the love that emerges from the essence of our being. These permanent reminders of how rewarding it is to become selfless in the process of becoming who we wish to.

Suzie Sateri

Pale Wrinkles

They pigmented my skin, the both of them.
They gave me stripes of pale, soft like silk.
Almost the shade of the moon.

It's as if they made light of how it felt to float in the clouds of my womb.
These natural marks of fertility.
Like an exhibition of wrinkles made beautiful in due time.

Suzie Sateri

CA Adventure Animation Academy

When exploring CA Adventure, the Animation Academy is worth a visit. The University style class brings you on a journey of excitement while learning how to draw your favorite Disney characters. The classes are about 15 minutes long every 30 minutes. The best part is bringing the art work home. The illustration is a positively memorable souvenir! 

Suzie Sateri

Tree Hearts

Tree Hearts is an ointment that can be used to relieve and moisturize sore feet, hands, shoulders, neck, lower back, legs, etc. The ointment can be used as a hair styling wax/gel and is very healing. The ointment can be used daily on hands, feet, hair and lips.

The ointment is called, "Three Hearts". I gave the name of the ointment a Persian accent just for fun, "Tree Hearts".

Order some now for only $10 (4oz).
https://paypal.me/TreeHearts

Please send me an email suziesateri@gmail.com
with "Tree Hearts" in the subject box.
I'll contact you to make sure you receive your
"Tree Hearts" and enjoy!

Beauty and the Beast - The Ride

The Beauty and the Beast Ride deserves a place in the original Disneyland (Anaheim, California).

Mobile Web Techs Tag - Beauty and the Beast The Ride

Tokyo Drift - Teriyaki Boyz [ MUSIC VIDEO ] HD

Andra Day's "Rise Up"

California Adventure

I know a long time ago I set out to try to write about Disneyland so that I stay on one topic. That didn't really happen. But that's what I like about Disneyland. There is so much to learn, so much to be inspired by, so much creation to admire and so much left to create.

I recently went on Soarin in California Adventure and it was so inspirational! Not to mention, relaxing. If you haven't had the chance to go on it yet, it is like a flight over different places in the world. There is a part where we flew over a safari type of adventure and it smelled like sweet grass. Over India, it smelled like roses. Going on the ride after waiting in line for a while was so worth it.

My 3 year old son went on Space Mountain for the 1st time with his cousins and he went on Soarin. I haven't heard him talk about his Disneyland adventures so much as he has after those 2 rides. I've been recognizing certain perspectives I hadn't thought about before. I appreciate the way people with a handicap have the ability to experience these types of adventures and positive interactions that otherwise might have been thought to be impossible to experience with a handicap.

TBC...

Decisions Decisions

How do we make big decisions? 
How do we make small decisions?
How do we know which one is which? 

Beauty and the Beast Ride

This is what is happening in 2033 - The opening of the Beauty and the Beast Ride at Disneyland.

Classy Style

The credit for all of the adorable coats - Maximillian and shoes - Ellington with so much classy style I have posted thus far goes to Susan Nowakhtar, her mother, Manzar (may she rest in peace) and her daughters! Thank you!

Sail

Please let me know if you like anything or love anything from the coats - Maximillian and the shoes - Ellington. Feel free to ask about sizes, prices etc.

suziesateri@gmail.com 

Dr. Grey - Ellington

Dark grey heels. Size 9.5 

St. Lucy's - Ellington

Sexy black heels. Size 7 

Dance with Me - Ellington

Black ankle shoes. Size 6.5 

7th Heaven - Ellington

Above the ankle leather boots. Size 7 

Timeless - Ellington

Below the knee leather heel boots. Size 7 

Dainty Paint - Maximillian

Dainty Paint is an all weather below the knee jacket. 

Black Beauty - Maximillian

Black Beauty is an all weather below the knee jacket.

The Essence of Time - Maximillian

The Essence of Time is a business casual jacket with Alice in Wonderland type of watches. 

Regal Light 1981 - Maximillian

Regal Light 1981 is a contemporary casual cream colored leather jacket. 

Pretty in Pink 1981 - Maximillian

Pretty in Pink 1981 is a light pale pink contemporary casual jacket. 

Baby You

Baby you.

Baby your nerves were so pure.
You reminded me of those moments when I feel so much excitement I don't even know what to do with myself.

I wasn't sure who was who for a moment
But I do know we shared the same injury.

Baby you
Baby me
And we understand that much.

In due time it will make more sense.
So, for now, baby you.
Literally just pamper yourself every chance you get.

And we can make friends.

Dave Matthews Band - You

When You Were Blind

When you were blind your heart still warmed the coldest.
You must have been able to sense how people were responding to you.
You waltzed through your pain like you had none at all.
That's what made you so divine.
You asked me if you could feel my face and told me I'm beautiful.
You must have wanted to know what I looked like.

So now you're bright and bold and strong.
And her smile is huge.
I'm happy about that.
Happy about you.

Google

I remember you. It was a really hard day for me and I was exhausted.
My son was exhausted too which didn't make it any easier for me.
But I liked you. And I liked everyone else I encountered at the office.
And the office space was open minded.

Sun and Moon

   I love to write children's books. The one posted to the right of this blog is the first one I've published and my favorite because it was inspired by my first son, Ellington. A family friend of ours who works for NASA discussed it with me right after it was published. I was telling her I think the moon is like the love of a parent for their child. She told me in the Iranian culture, people believe the sun is like the love of God. So I love the book because of all of the symbolism and meanings in the essence of it. We can't exactly love our children as well as the Almighty, but we try to reflect that type of love.

Suzie Sateri

Worth It

Coming along to pick me apart like I'm a house?
Like a mess that might not be cleaned up... ever.
What are you, my neighbor?

NO Pearl

Pearl

Hello Old Man

The old man cloud.What do you think it looks like?

You Set Me Free

I can't find my headphones. Those little things.
I just want to blast music videos and read and read and read certain ones to determine 2 million different perspectives and meanings from them.

But this one. This one gave me a certain peace I've been longing for.
I've watched it before, studied and loved the sound, her voice.
But this time, I understood what I've been missing in that part of me that needed mending.

Makes me feel like a little girl trying to follow her mother at Disneyland.
The loving, healing power of a woman, a mother...

Suzie Sateri

Ed Sheeran – Perfect Symphony feat. Andrea Bocelli [Live at Wembley Stad...

Can I Go Back In?

Whew

Some More Grunts

Grunts

Here We Are

When you're trying to find your way in this world,
and you don't really know who you are or who you want to be,
Just remember who you were when you didn't know who you were,
Remember when you were trying to find your way in this world,
And welcome the moment you're in.

Hold on to what makes you smile and laugh,
Think about what was so great it was practically magical and embrace it.

The moments of erupting laughter
Of frustrated tears
Of doubtful body language
Of hopes and fears

And know you got through
Whether someone helped you or you were in the loving wings of the Almighty
Here you are.

Suzie Sateri

Baby L Composition

Haven't played this composition since this day but I still like it.

At Disneyland

We tell them to listen to us.
Are you listening?
Be a good listener.

When we argue
When we speak words we don't mean

Listen to me,
listen to your father,
we tell them.

What do they hear?

Suzie Sateri

The Way You Sweat

I think about it sometimes.
About how much you carry for us physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally.
God knows how much I appreciate.

The way you don't even know every aspect of what you do for others.
That's the best part.

I watch you and admire.
The way you love what you do.
The way you dedicate your time and effort into becoming really good at it.

You sweat, under a tremendous amount of stress and pressure.
You pour your heart out.
That's why I respect you.

Eminem - Walk On Water (Official Video)

Like An Eagle

Thank you for killing my pain.
And for loving me as you love your best self.

A father in a room full of birds.
Even our nation started with four of them.

Some like shooting stars.
Bright when they fly across the sky but they only exist for a little while.

Beautiful souls trying to find their way in life.
Like a father watching over his children, he endured.

As for me, he made me want to live my life.

Suzie Sateri

Pitbull - Fireball ft. John Ryan

The Tiki Room

We stood on the edge of the stairway at Disneyland and watched the fireworks.
They're loud, really loud.
And they're stunning. 

He pointed his finger at me like he was shooting a gun and I wondered if he realized he made that gesture.
And I listened to his words that were spoken so quickly I could only decipher the ones that went along with his gesture.
It was pure genius.

I saw a lizard wedged between the wood on the deck and when I looked closer I recognized the body of a snake under it.
Possibly a king snake that had its stuck jaws spread around the lizard's neck.

When I came home he asked me if I wanted to drink the blood of a lizard and I thought, but I'm not a king.

How So

When one goes through it, we all go through it they say.

We've been having babies, our generation, and now we are going through the phase of, can I even stand this person I've had my babies with?
The answer lately is no with glimpses of yes.

Baby needs mother during the first phases of life and father in different ways.
Here is one perspective: You are an infant, take care of yourself. 

Have we been and do we have the capability of nurturing the most vulnerable pieces of one another?

Crosses

She said it was evident we were born into the A team and I think she had a point.

He did go Awol when we were kids.
His best friend sent an email about it.
He took us along with him and called me a psycho.

We went through it together.
They were our sunshine and our fun nights in the town.

It must have been a combination of the two of them.
She was the storm and he weathered it.
They had eyes for each other and brought out the best in us.

He was a veteran of the United States and her, like a veterinarian.
Year after year, steady as the sunshine they've been.
Yet they still manage to be all they can be.

They just began to discover one another as we begin to recognize who we are.
I look at their faces and experience the colors of the rainbow.
They've worn them all and blended together.
Mostly the red, white and blue.
Crosses.

Now he's wearing those instead of the little psycho.
And she defends like it wasn't even his position to begin with.

We watch like children and participate in the bliss and in the madness.

Being gently guided we ask questions about whether we should kneel or stand.
Deciding when we will that we should just trust.

The blood, sweat and tears of our lineage have given us life.
And through that, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.

Thank you for the memories that enrich the lives of so many.

The Dragon

I told my son he and his father have their own secret language when they play video games because I don't really like to play those types of games. But I love when they talk to me about what they play.

Our son told me about a dragon in the video game he and his Dad were playing. I asked him what he does when he sees the dragon and his Dad says they shoot it. I questioned. What if it's a good dragon? His Dad says they just "shoot all of the bad off of the dragon so it can be happy". That makes sense. Sorta.

California

At a beach in California a few days after the last post.
Possibly a person with integrity.
I hope the light lifts you up and makes you feel blessed.

Homeless Man Plays Street Piano Beautifully in Florida (Come Sail Away) ...

When You Wear Me

Bare hug you till your buttons come off.
You push pull all of mine and then go mad.

Do you want me to chase you America?
Do you want me to want you like you want me?

Baby you are out of this country.
Come on home to Momma. 

Steady and strong man how do you love me like you've known me forever?

Don't get me upset young man.
Look how you make me out like a junkie.

You put me on.
I love when you wear me.

Bank of America.

Somewhere

If you ever get the chance to look at things through the rainbow spectrum, consider yourself blessed. Rarely, so rare is the occasion someone comes across this seemingly imaginary pot of gold.

Suzie Sateri

Euclid

She is gracious and kind.
She'll embrace you with warm arms and loving wings.
She knows what it's like to need a hug.

She'll give you a smile when you bring her some sunshine.
She will make your heart feel happy.

The fair lady locked up and wasn't exactly fair.
She resembled a spiritual ghost trying to find herself in the midst of her ruins.

Because when one goes through it, we all go through it.

Now she begins to extend her arms.
We watch her as she begins to heal like new skin on a birthday.
The strong by her side who don't necessarily love their life but believe it was meant to be lived.

And now, she looks through the eyes of more than just herself.
And she loves that window to the soul.

Suzie Sateri 

Blu & Exile - No Greater Love

I Am Him

"Please don't take music away from him", my brother says. I'm not sure if he even said that out loud or if that's just what I heard.
Since when did OBG become a man?
Google says I can't get paid for my blog with add sense if I have music videos and the like here because most of them are from different sources.

Bitch

I don't want to be such a bitch sometimes.
Then other times I think it's probably a good thing.
Healthy because it's just a part of life.
Then I watch Michael go into his beast modes and I laugh to myself (after the fact).
When I get in bad moods and feel like the biggest bitch on earth thinking about his beast modes makes me feel better about myself.
So he helps me a lot.
lol
I hope he lol's at this post instead of going into beast mode though.

How

How did that make me feel? Like a beast.
My poor dog. She is limping so I gave her children's Tylenol.

Michael Says

Michael says I should write the letter for our new home as an outside voice. More of a we. I didn't know how.

My Voice

I don't know if I want to use my voice as much as I should because without my mom I sound like nails on a chalkboard.

Dave Matthews Band Summer Tour Warm Up - Loving Wings 9.6.15

Pretty Momma

You're so pretty and what's so pretty about you is that you don't know how pretty you are. 

Maybe sometimes you realize but probably not often enough. 

I remember looking up at your face when I was a child. 

You looked like the prettiest lady I could ever imagine. 

When you smiled at me you touched my soul for a lifetime. 

I loved you from that moment on. 

I saw how much you loved me by the look on your face. 

I remember the moment so well. 

It was just like something from a movie. 

You were dressed up so beautiful. 

When I looked at you recently I realized who you are. 

Because of that look.

Except it was a little bit different this time. 

The smile on your face wasn't as big but it was just as genuine and heartfelt. 

It was a really deep one that you worked hard for. 

You had no idea how gorgeous you are. 

Your skin looked as porcelain as a newborn baby. 

The way your soul is so gentle shined through. 

That's just how you are. 

It's how you've always been. 

You're so pretty to me Momma.  

"Skinny Love" - Birdy

Human Tendencies

Sometimes my babies show me who they are.
Sometimes my parents show me who they are.
My friends are starting to show me who they are.
Not my dogs though, those bitches.

Little by little, I'm learning about myself and others with a different perspective.
A brand new one sometimes.

Some bring out the best in me.
Some bring out the worst.
Some my crazy.
Some my sexy.

Good news, we're human.

I know you like it when I just type whatever is in my mind and on my heart even if it makes no sense at all.
I love that you encourage that type of work from me.
It's my favorite kind.

Just like you are. My favorite kind. My favorite cup of tea, my favorite donuts, my favorite coffee, my favorite conversation, my favorite laughter, my favorite smiles, my favorite babysitter, my favorite voice, my favorite.

Now come over and make fun of me about how chaotic my writing is.
Then look at my room, my wardrobe, my desk, my bed. Notice how consistent that chaos is.
Then laugh about it when you think about it because I know you will.
And just the thought of you smiling and laughing makes me feel happy.

Sometimes I just feel like sitting in the Trump towers and watching people.
Watching the gentlemen I so love.
Watching people watch us.
Watching people love.
Watching people.

Then just writing about it and looking at the chandeliers.
And thinking about the future, about the past and the present.
With my quiet observing eyes of a child.

Then coming home to my garden to watch the bluish purple butterflies circling the rose seeds I can't wait to see bloom.
I imagine how they will look.
How they will produce beauty that will inspire me to look as beautiful as them.

Maybe beautiful like a Japanese bell.

My Babies My Soul

Having a baby is something that is really exciting on both ends of the spectrum. What I mean by that is it's both nerve racking and heavenly. A baby, I like to think, is a gift of wisdom in a tiny little body. It's a human form of two people combined into one person. It's a gift to have the chance to observe wisdom in it's purest and truest form. Babies encourage all of us to be better people.

You Remember

When you feel like you're at the end of your rope you remember me.
Remember how you threw it to me and I hung on to it like my life depended on it.
You remember how heavy that weight felt when you wanted to let go and know that you pulled me through.
You remember I'm going to tie a knot on it for you and watch as you glide practically weightless through the air and into nirvana with a smile on the face of my soul.

Suzie Sateri

Virtue Moir 2010 Olympics FD

Virtue/Moir 2014 Olympics SD 'Dream A Little Dream Of Me

We Imagine

It's been a while. Not to long, but just a while. How long is a while anyway?

I want to paint. I need to paint and when I think about painting I just want to sit here and write. Then writing makes me feel like painting because I want to finish my painting projects. I'm trying to give myself at least 2-3 years to finish one. Because that's just how long I should give myself to finish the painting.

It's a gift. A gift that saves lives. That's why I love it so much.

It encourages me to make the best of this life of mine.

Not just the painting itself, but what has gone into it and what it is evolving into. It's so beautiful. Like the bottom of a Japanese bell.

The eyes of it originated like neon lights beaming across the night sky.
Then it was all white like the quilt my baby boy's great great grandfather and his wife shared.
Parts of it are still like that.

But like a seed that breaks through the soil and grows towards the light of the sun, the painting is bursting with beauty from the heart of it.

And so we imagine.

Suzie Sateri

Perfect Happiness

Yes, it is evident I've taken a break from my writing because when I sit down to write I feel as if my fingers need water.

I just want to honor you today. I hope every day is a blessing for you but especially today, unparalleled.
You're one of those people who my soul longs to be near.

When this lifetime begins to tick tock we somehow find one another in a unique space.
Remarkable because it was unsound and substandard and you loved me through it, perfectly.

I see your face in his sometimes.
The way his cheeks pull back towards his ears and his pearly whites shine at me, lighting my eyes.
What are you experiencing from your perspective?

I hope a state of Nirvana.

Suzie Sateri

Breathing Symphony

The sound of you breathing while you're asleep is like an elegant symphony to my ears.
I love to watch you while you are in a peaceful state of rest, your long eyelashes lay on the top of your cheek like butterfly kisses.
Your body is healing and recovering from hard work, your heart beating and your lungs carrying this sound of breathing I wish to cherish in the depths of my soul forever.

Imperfection Interpretation

I watched today with joy in my heart.
The reason being I knew you were having fun.

I imagine you were/are parents of dogs.
The ones with the biggest smiles made me laugh to myself.
As did the ones who were crabby.

Such a beautiful interpretation of the life of dog parents.
You kids, dat was magical genius.

Old School Hip Hop 101 - Extreme Dance Company at UF

Miley Cyrus - Can't Be Tamed

Your Brilliant Mistakes

There are times I think about writing all of my thoughts about everything for you.
But I wonder if any of it would make sense to you now.
Maybe years away is when you'd gain insight.

So, for now it's hard to know what to say to you, what to write.
I know you're exhausted from trying to be everything you've been for those you love.

Just know you've earned your crown so let it sit beautifully and brilliantly on top of your head.
Your mistakes, forgive yourself.
Every time.

I know where you're kept tightly woven into the fiber of my being.
And with me you will remain until you no longer need me.

Then is when I'll fly away and love you from afar.

Watching your brilliant mistakes thinking about how they don't seem like mistakes at all.

Aloe Blacc - You make me smile - OFFICIAL VIDEO

Poetic Chaotic Smile

When we talk to an open mind, we learn extensively.
We discover what is right, and what is wrong, according to perspective.

It is our responsibility to choose what we think.
A prayer in motion with the golden rule in mind and heart.

Of course, we will make mistakes.
These will lead us to understand.

There are numerous standpoints with unusual views.
None of them actually right or wrong, according to equivalent attitudes.

The perspectives we choose to have pair us with matching interpretations.

In the process of making discoveries, we formulate opinions based on these findings.
I find it more important than ever to try my best to keep an open mind.
For when I decide to make a decision based off of what I know, my children might be thinking the opposite way.

And we do understand they (our children) are our leaders just as much as we are theirs.
And we do want to nurture their brilliant minds and their sweet souls as we nurture ours.

Suzie Sateri

Apple Bergen

Her zipper was down but she was at home.
His zipper was down in the store.
Your zipper has been down at home.
There is no bathroom in the store.

That genius yellow light above your head is something similar to Edison.
And you, female, too perfect.
I don't look like that right now.

But you look like the most tasty apple treat imaginable.
Just bring my bank bag with you to work, and come home, America.

I inherited that without my name.
But I just want to be myself.

I resemble more of the bag lady type.
Aka: New Mom
And I peed my pants a little bit.
That was funny to me.

I like it that way.
It's liberating to let go of what doesn't serve the essence of us.

But you, I just have to trust.
As you just have to trust me.

Apple Bergen, I just love that name.

Suzie Sateri

Sia - Helium (Lyrics)

Let it be - Alicia Keys & John Legend

Parents

We've met some extraordinary people in life.
Most of my dearest I've known and grew up with my entire life.

But, once in a while, someone glides into our life and enkindles us so much we permeate vitality.

Once in a while, we understand what it feels like to truly and deeply respect someone.

Once in a while we have to look at them with only our eyes, from deep within our soul, to grasp the magnitude of their brilliance.

Once in a while, when we look at someone like that, we realize that someone is our parent, carrying within them, every single piece of us.

Suzie Sateri

So beautiful.... so beautiful.... Khachaturian Spartacus Adagio Love and...

Lady Gaga - Million Reasons

Warm Baby

I want to laugh. I want to laugh because it feels good and it's really fun to laugh and feel like laughing.

Sometimes it feels good to cry.
Sometimes we get to cry when we watch a sad movie or we are so happy about something that it moves us to tears.

When you get scared, know that I get scared too. The only thing to be scared of is feeling scared. Once we experienced being scared we either want to laugh or cry.

When you get happy, know that I get happy too. The only thing to be happy about is feeling happy. Once we experience being happy we either want to laugh or cry.

Sometimes reasons don't have immediate explanations.

Sometimes understanding is a matter of time and space.
Somewhere leads us to the moon and the stars.

And every day the sun shines it's face on us and we experience the warmth of God.

Suzie Sateri

Garden Painting

Paint a picture with me. One really fetching and keep it safe so we can look at it again and again. To re imagine what it was, to think of what it can be and to treasure it for what it is.
That's what I want to do with you is just sit in the garden and paint.
You're everything for me, for us, when I'm not sure you even think you're anything.
Sometimes I wonder if you're aware of my presence.
I respect your gentleness.
Even through times of great trials your pedigree communicates appreciable disposition.
And I love you, especially when I love myself.

Xxo Suzie Sateri

Yellow Roses

My brother and I spoke about making one area of the garden yellow. The area is already primarily yellow with flowers, evergreen shrubs and a new plant that has yellow flowers that smell like honey. All we need now are some yellow roses.
Yellow roses are known to symbolize "joy, wisdom, power and good wishes" according to https://www.pinterest.com/pin/26740191520041054/.

Butter Honey Bread

We make our interpretations.

Listening to stories with no voices dressed up as music.

Judging with our opinions and conclusions.

I giggle like a little girl when I think of us sometimes.

All of us. 

We are something to laugh about often. 

I just want to hear you in your quiet space. 

Unoccupied and doing nothing. 

Maybe some crickets chirping at night.

Maybe some birds chirping in the morning. 

Warm pita bread with honey and butter.

And some words to write.

Maybe 500 tomorrow. 

Fat chance. 

The Art of Happiness

I'm trying to practice the art of being happy where I am.

Love Heals

And so it happens just like that. When we feel like we're at the end of our rope, or maybe even gave up inside of our heart, someone comes along to keep us going. In the theory of relativity, the frame of reference is the point where we felt we could no longer continue on the path we were on. The people who love us still by our side but they are not the same. What is the same is their love for us and our love for them.

Some of which manifest themselves in ways to let us know they would die for us, lay down their life for us. In the theory of relativity we're provided different space to expand our thoughts, to give us a different perspective and to give us life. Every morning when the sun rises and every night when the moon gives light, our life grows warmer.

Suzie Sateri

Tessa Virtue, Scott Moir Free Dance at the 2017 World Championships

2018 Winter Olympics Opening Ceremony: When, Where And How To Watch The ...

The Winter Olympics

   I read the title of an article recently and it was an article including a list of reasons why we should watch the Olympics. I didn't read the article yet but I've been thinking about the title for days.
   Tonight my parents were watching figure skating and I was able to catch a few routines in the process. Usually I don't watch the men's figure skating. I primarily focus on the women's figure skating and couples routines but tonight I watched the men's figure skating.
   I started thinking to myself about how we really should watch the Olympics when we have the chance. The reason being the athletes practice and practice and practice for sometimes a lifetime. When we watch the Olympics we get a glimpse of what a lifetime of hard work and dedication looks like in a few minutes.

Fluffy Pillow

When I look at you I get a view of the past.
Parts of it I want to let go of and other parts I want to keep and build upon.
Like the foundation for a house in the process of making a home you're my bedrock.
When I look at you I see a thousand mistakes that shed like colorful leaves in due season.
A thousand lessons planted like a seed, rooted in love, growing into a strong tree, given like a gift from fruit of old.
When I look at you I see the way we were born to be vulnerable and brand new to everything and everyone we have ever known.
When I look at you I understand how to move forward with what we have and what we are in every moment.
When I run with you I feel the air on my face like cold water, clean and looking up to the sunlight.
When I hold you I feel like the weight of the world is like a feather dropping down from the sky light like the fluff of a cloud.
When I love you I am.

Suzie Sateri

Dr. Gray

A little while back, my car window was shattered in the Disneyland theme park parking lot. A girl walking next to me immediately called security when we noticed glass all over the floor and I told her it was my car. The glass was shattered into my car and all over the car seat of my child. The car next to me had their window broken too but the glass from their car was on the ground so it looked like someone kicked the window out from the inside.

Security, the police, and a forensics team were called. I was told I'd be fully compensated and the people/person responsible would be arrested and held responsible. It was also determined that the arrest and charging of the person/s responsible was not up to me, it would happen whether or not I chose to.

From the car, my wallet was taken, containing my health insurance cards as well as the health insurance cards of my children, my check book and a few other cards/items that I can't think of off of the top of my head.

This incident has taught me a few things. It has taught me a group of caring citizens is all that is required for making the world a better place. When we put our heads together for a good cause, things can change and global progress can be made.

For a writer, creator, author or inventor, the most difficult part of the process is perhaps, success. The reason being when a writer creates a character, perhaps from inspiration of someone being funny, trying to create laughter and joy, or wanting to share a voice that makes you laugh, when that character is brought to life because of an actor/actress or whatever the case may be, it is disturbing. It puts the creative process on the back burner because the writer/creator is aware of this life that they wrote or created as fiction. It is similar to having the passenger side of your car window shattered at Disneyland.

I wonder if that is how people feel when I post music videos on this blog. I don't ask them for permission to do so.

Dear Momma, Moon of Mine

Mom,

She is someone, who, to me, has light like the moon. I'd compare her love to that of the sun if the sun weren't like the love of God. I see her, in all of these different perspectives, like pieces of the moon throughout it's monthly cycle and she shines so bright for us. Loving my significant other as if it were hers, guiding me when life gets dark. Sometimes I'm not even looking for her as she appears before me and I stand in awe of her beauty. I talk to her like she is the moon sometimes because she is that strong then I am sorrowful when she turns into a sliver. Nothing can take away her shine. She was just created like that. I've landed among the stars and none ever shone as bright as she. They always lead me back to her. So, love like the moon I give to thee.

Suzie

www.moonofmine.com